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Heyo it me. Wow,I can't believe its been two years already jeez a lot has changed. What up with the site even it's different. I didn't think i'd be able to remember my password but here i am. Boy I've clearly missed a lot in my absence. Speaking of my disappearance, I'm sorry i kind of just up an left. I've been a terrible friend and i'm sorry but in truth i needed that. I needed to just take time off from everything. I'm not going to get into much detail but for awhile i was on shaky ground. I was struggling to keep myself from subsiding to gravity's pressure and falling between the cracks. In that time i was able to focus on myself more and I've started to find my footing. A lot has changed including myself. I took a step back and viewed myself from a different perspective and decided that had to change and some people had to go. I'm glad I've decided going about this. I went around being someone i'm not and that's no way to live. I decided to stop hiding an just come out an be true to myself. I just want to let you know why i suddenly left and to also thank you guys for the happy birthday wishes an what not. Thanks for sticking around an being here when i clearly wasn't.

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IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE JUST KEEP READING IF NOT THANK YOU ANYWAY
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I know i said i wasn't going to get into much detail but i guess i just want to get it all off my chest please bare with me. Lets just start off with this stupid essay that forced me to dig up some dirt that i had deeply buried. For honors our final assignment was to write an essay about ourselves, or more so our identity. What lead us to be who we are today. First off this was a first person perspective we were use to dealing with the third person. Always being told to never use I  made it hard, especially considering the assignment was about you personally. I didn't turned this assignment in. It would have definitely boosted my grade but i just couldn't. I got to writing it and i realized no matter how many times i rewrote it I didn't want to deal with it. Each time i wrote of how my name, my real name,(Yea Irela is not my real name. I'm not a fan of my birth name so I just went by Irela.) tasted sour when spoken. How it wasn't beautiful, how i wasn't beautiful. I just let my insecurities grip hold and the negativity drag me down. So much honesty filled the pages and it was just too open for me to feel any sort of comfort. I didn't want to share that with her. Sure my teacher was a very understanding lady. She pushed me and i'm happy she didn't give up on me like i did. But I just couldn't share it with her. I've been full of so much guilt, to think she held such high hope in me and i return with nothing. I even wrote her an apology letter. As i read it i realized its okay. I mean it's not okay that i slacked off but i shouldn't be apologizing for something i couldn't control. I fell into a pit of depression and there i remained for awhile. I just gave up. I gave up on school, gave up on myself. I somehow managed to climb out of it. My friend was a huge help with the support she lent me. In this time I've had to get myself together i evaluated myself. I took a look at myself and decided that me had to go. I wanted to belong so badly i went as far as throwing away my morals for Christ sake. I was desperate for their acceptance but none of that even mattered. I'm happy to say I've found what i was looking for in myself. I may not be a fan of the name that was instantly made fun of/linked to stereotypes, but It's growing on me. I've accepted myself and it just feels so good. It feels nice to be comfortable here in my body. To be who I am instead of something i'm clearly not. It's nice to be back here but i'm not sure if it'll last. I'm honestly thinking of deleting my account, now don't get me wrong i love art. I love creating and thankfully I've improved my style along with myself. Just being here and seeing so many brilliant artists and to witness their unique style is wonderful,but i think I just want a clean start. Ya know to go along with the new me. I know this is a lot but thank you for staying tuned. (ps. It's Brittany. If you must know, my birth name is Brittany. I prefer going by Burt tho.)
  • Mood: Relief
Heyo it me. Wow,I can't believe its been two years already jeez a lot has changed. What up with the site even it's different. I didn't think i'd be able to remember my password but here i am. Boy I've clearly missed a lot in my absence. Speaking of my disappearance, I'm sorry i kind of just up an left. I've been a terrible friend and i'm sorry but in truth i needed that. I needed to just take time off from everything. I'm not going to get into much detail but for awhile i was on shaky ground. I was struggling to keep myself from subsiding to gravity's pressure and falling between the cracks. In that time i was able to focus on myself more and I've started to find my footing. A lot has changed including myself. I took a step back and viewed myself from a different perspective and decided that had to change and some people had to go. I'm glad I've decided going about this. I went around being someone i'm not and that's no way to live. I decided to stop hiding an just come out an be true to myself. I just want to let you know why i suddenly left and to also thank you guys for the happy birthday wishes an what not. Thanks for sticking around an being here when i clearly wasn't.

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IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE JUST KEEP READING IF NOT THANK YOU ANYWAY
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I know i said i wasn't going to get into much detail but i guess i just want to get it all off my chest please bare with me. Lets just start off with this stupid essay that forced me to dig up some dirt that i had deeply buried. For honors our final assignment was to write an essay about ourselves, or more so our identity. What lead us to be who we are today. First off this was a first person perspective we were use to dealing with the third person. Always being told to never use I  made it hard, especially considering the assignment was about you personally. I didn't turned this assignment in. It would have definitely boosted my grade but i just couldn't. I got to writing it and i realized no matter how many times i rewrote it I didn't want to deal with it. Each time i wrote of how my name, my real name,(Yea Irela is not my real name. I'm not a fan of my birth name so I just went by Irela.) tasted sour when spoken. How it wasn't beautiful, how i wasn't beautiful. I just let my insecurities grip hold and the negativity drag me down. So much honesty filled the pages and it was just too open for me to feel any sort of comfort. I didn't want to share that with her. Sure my teacher was a very understanding lady. She pushed me and i'm happy she didn't give up on me like i did. But I just couldn't share it with her. I've been full of so much guilt, to think she held such high hope in me and i return with nothing. I even wrote her an apology letter. As i read it i realized its okay. I mean it's not okay that i slacked off but i shouldn't be apologizing for something i couldn't control. I fell into a pit of depression and there i remained for awhile. I just gave up. I gave up on school, gave up on myself. I somehow managed to climb out of it. My friend was a huge help with the support she lent me. In this time I've had to get myself together i evaluated myself. I took a look at myself and decided that me had to go. I wanted to belong so badly i went as far as throwing away my morals for Christ sake. I was desperate for their acceptance but none of that even mattered. I'm happy to say I've found what i was looking for in myself. I may not be a fan of the name that was instantly made fun of/linked to stereotypes, but It's growing on me. I've accepted myself and it just feels so good. It feels nice to be comfortable here in my body. To be who I am instead of something i'm clearly not. It's nice to be back here but i'm not sure if it'll last. I'm honestly thinking of deleting my account, now don't get me wrong i love art. I love creating and thankfully I've improved my style along with myself. Just being here and seeing so many brilliant artists and to witness their unique style is wonderful,but i think I just want a clean start. Ya know to go along with the new me. I know this is a lot but thank you for staying tuned. (ps. It's Brittany. If you must know, my birth name is Brittany. I prefer going by Burt tho.)
  • Mood: Relief

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weaq Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
HBD!
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I love you ;u; Post more stuff bae.
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Puptarts Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014
Happy birthday ! ;w;
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happy b-day!!
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<3 Heart's fo' you! :b
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Hi Irela! :wave:
Thank you very much for the :+fav: on Esmeralda
I hope you like my new and upcoming works. =D  Sorry for delay in answering! Cheers!! :iconkissmote:
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